leopard

iamtashwiba


Tasha!

Tasha has left the building


i cant believe people still post on here
leopard
iamtashwiba
i had entirely abandon this site for years, as you can see, when i thought to myself: "whatever happened to livejournal?". since myspace had taken over (and then facebook and now twitter and so on) i had not even thought about this site. So i checked it out (on my new laptop, mind you) and i am suprised to see how many people that i know still post on here fairly regularly.

keep the dream alive!

i did.
leopard
iamtashwiba
i wish i would have found this when it applied, but i still identify with it.


What do you do when you know somethings bad for you
And you still cant let go?

I was naiive
Your love was like candy
Artificially sweet
I was deceived by the wrapping
Got caught in your web
And I learned how to bleed
I was prey in your bed
And devoured completely

And it hurts my soul
Cause I cant let go
All these walls are caving in
I cant stop my suffering
I hate to show that Ive lost control
Cause i, I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from

I need to get away from ya
I need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away

I should have known
I was used for amusement
Couldnt see through the smoke
It was all an illusion

Now Ive been licking my wounds
But the vemon seeps deeper
We both can seduce
But darling you hold me prisoner

Im about to break
I cant stop this ache
Im addicted to your allure
And Im fiendin for a cure
Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need...

I cant mend
This torn state Im in
Getting nothing in return
What did I do to deserve
The pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from

Everytime I try to grasp for air
I get smothered in dispair, its never over, over
Seems Ill never wake from this nightmare,
I let out a silent prayer
That it be over, over

Inside Im screaming
Begging, pleading no more
I dont know what to do
My heart has been bruised
So sad but its true
Each beat reminds me of you

Im about to break
And I cant stop this ache
Im addicted to your allure
And Im fiendin for a cure
Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need, oh
I need to get away from ya
I need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away

-christina aguilera

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leopard
iamtashwiba
help me

contadictions
leopard
iamtashwiba
i suppose i'm just a jumble of walking contradictions. i tend to act like a diva sometimes, but other times i act like a boy, making dirty jokes; i like to be clean and have manners, but i also have been known to drink out of 2 liter bottles (and put them back, to my mother's horror). in highschool, i was the cool ''drummer chick'', but i was also the varsity knowledge bowl captain. im a true rocker at heart but i love dancing to rap and singing the ridiculous lyrics. i know exactly what i want, yet i can't seem to make meaningless decisions, like where to eat.

i use proper grammar and punctuation, yet i never capitalize letters.

so bored
leopard
iamtashwiba
i have an interview at 10 30.

i went to sleep early (at like 6) cause i was tired and was in a horrible mood, so there was no point of being awake. my sleep schedule is so fucked. i usually go to sleep around 9am and wake up at 5 30pm, but i only got 2 hrs of sleep night before last so i was insanely tired. hence the 6 o'clock bedtime last night.

then i woke up at 3 30am and have been awake since, already showered and ready for my interview at 10 30am. the only thing i havent done is get dressed, cause i figure i have to have something to do in the next hour and a half.

maybe i'll eat again. i didnt eat anything (except a yogurt) yesterday, but i ate an enchalada this morning when i woke up at 3 30am... i could probably eat again before i leave, to take up time.

the lady that did my interview on the phone was nice. she's also doing the one in person, i think. she seems like she and i could be friends... unless we're not supposed to be friends with supervisors..? hmm

it's just a call center job, something for now. just to have money and move out again. it pays well enough. im not too worried. just bored.

drummin!
leopard
iamtashwiba
i havent played drums in forever.... today i did and i rocked the shit, dude. im so glad i havent lost it. "it" being my drum-awesomeness. sehr spitze

i want another crash cymbal. i think i shall take a trip to guitar center one of these days and scope out the selection so i know how much i have to save..... after i save for the mexico trip, that is.... wow thats soon... shit.... haha

i <3 dance aerobics class.... and DANCING! i want to go to the diskotek this weekend!

ICH WERDE NACH MORGEN TANZEN!

bis später,

<3 tasha

hey look im pulling a *insert forbidden name here*
leopard
iamtashwiba
I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me,
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness,
but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.

'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,
want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle,
your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times,
we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and everytime we kiss,
I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,
want you in my life.

'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and everytime we kiss,
I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.

-Cascada's "Every time we touch"

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leopard
iamtashwiba
joe needs to be up like NOW! omg, im freaking out....

mmmmmmmmmm
leopard
iamtashwiba
i really want muchas and i dont have any money.... grrr, im starving

so much for impulses....
leopard
iamtashwiba
so i decided today that i wanted to bleach out a couple chunks of hair, so that at some point i could dye them a color (maybe purple?) since they could be easily covered.

so i dig out all my old hair altering products, and i only have level 40 developer in a liquid form that i got from brian osborne forever ago. i have 2 bottles of creme level 20, but my hair is black and im impatient, so i go to use the 40 liquid and, not only does it get everywhere, but it doesnt work.

nothing happens.

so i have bleach all over the counter, its not foaming like its supposed to, i already sectioned out the parts in my hair, and... nothing. im so dissapointed.



tomorrow [later today] i will conquer.

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